A victim of physical, sexual and verbal abuse, Lorraine used her weight as protection against her alcoholic father. She became an emotional eater and saw food as a comfort and was her best friend. She considered food an addiction because it was her drug of choice. She talks in-depth about her life long use of diets pills and even lost 125 with Phen Phen only to gain back 140 pounds when it was taken off the market. She figures she has lost 1000 pounds over the years dieting only to find herself 200 pounds to the worse when all was said and done. She was ashamed and angry with herself before she elected to have bariatric surgery.